FAT

My mum says I'm fat.
My brother says I'm fat.
My dad says I'm fat.
My ex says I'm fat.
My aunt says I'm fat.

IS THERE REALLY NO OTHER WORD TO DESCRIBE ME OTHER THAN FAT?

INVINCIBLE

it has been a very long time since i wrote...


so here goes.

1. FRIENDS
i became best friends with the greatest people around the world;
MAISARAH MAZLAN,
SYIRAH YAACOB,
SOFIYA RADZI,

PUTERI ANIS

they brought me to a clearer part of life.
-they made me love to go to the mosque.
-they made my marks shoot up to the sky.
-they make me happy.
-they make me forget all the awfull people in the world.

2. BOYS
i'm falling deeply and madly inlove with the guy who;
-treats me like a princess.
-layan je i buat pape bodoh pon.
-gives me what i want.
-tell me what i want to hear.
IRFIRUDIN ALI, trust me, all this time i've been yelling n scolding you till we both go mad, i'm actually training you for the worst times i go PMS on you in marriage. :)
i love youu.

3. STUDIES
i can't believe i got a 3.94 png for last semester. i mean, HOW OFTEN DO YOU GET TO SAY YOU GOT A 3.94png FOR AN ENGINEERING SEMESTER. SERIOUSLLYY.
i'm also now studying chemistry, which is really hard sometimes. but sooo glad my test is like, 36/40 and it was good to know i don't really suck at it.
though, physics this semester is like living hell. so i'm really praying harder this time.

4. OVERALL
i'm happy. and that's all that matters :)

BARNEY

Barney is a dinosaur from our imagination
And when he's tall
He's what we call a dinosaur sensation

Barney's friend are big and small
They come from lots of places
After school they meet to play
and sing with happy faces

Barney show us lots of things
Like how to play pretend
ABC's and 123's
And how to be a friend

Barney comes to play with us
Whenever we may need him
Barney can be your friend too
If you just make-believe him!


tribute to the people who thinks i am like barney. :)

MALAM KEGELAPAN

malam ini, rumah I5-01-09 tiada bekalan elektrik.
pergi sembahyang berjemaah di masjid (maghrib) bersama Maisarah Mazlan.
makan ice kimo sudah DUA.
yumm. :)

HE SAID SHE SAID

you are the dumbest among the brains. the brainiest among the dumb.

you are easy to be fallen in love with, easy to fall for someone. but its hard for you to get over someone.

your voice is like an angel singing from the heavens. but inside you, i know you're a devil within.

you scream like a dude.

i think you are so easy to cheat and be bullied.

you're the kind that sticks to one guy your whole life.

you can't stand people hating you. you're too sensitive.

you don't know how to take care of other people's feelings. you're a bit rude and annoying.

you're funny. i like you.

you're cute and sweet. i can fall in love with you. you make me happy. i really like you.
but i just can't get over my ex.

study study study.

no one could fall for you. you're too fat.

i think you're a dramaqueen, bitch.

nate mung. korok ijaa.

she's better than you. i like her. she's nicer and prettier.

people say when GOD closes a door, HE opens up a window or another door for us. well, sometimes, HE knocks down a whole damn wall for you.

this is shit. this is real deal shit.


these are the phrases i've heard from others to me. and will always remember my whole life

RANDOM

this don't make sense.
've got to stand my ground.
where on this earth i could be, on the corner of the streets.

i'll keep waiting

now i'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes.
i don't know how to be something you miss.
your name, forever the name on my lips

i'll keep up with our old friends just to know how you are.

JUSTIN BIEBER?

lady gaga-we're all superstars.

cuz HE made you perfect.
i'm beautiful.
i was born this way.
be a QUEEN.

i'm on the right track.i was born to be brave.

you make me wanna say i do.
tribute to IRFIRUDIN ALI.
i was happy to say love never lasts. but you made me wanna say "i do"
ooh. what did i get myself into. :)
do you feel the same?

its a beautiful night.
hey baby, i think i wanna marry you.

ps: even when i go crazy the whole day.or even scream and yell psychotically at random people..

p/ps: at the end of the day, it comes down to me loving you. :)

ILLUMINATI

Can i say what i think about illuminati?

Well, i think it's stupid.

People say that Lady Gaga, Miley Cyrus, Justin Bieber etc are in Illuminati. Can i say i don't care and still love their songs?
I mean really, if you think about it, if you actually DON'T think deeply, the songs won't even do you harm.
Sure, if you resing it backwards, its like a mantera to pray to satans. But it's THEIR religion. Can't we just let them be?
Plus, if you tell me about "the signs" such as pyramid and one eye thing, i'll say so what? those are the signs in their religion. As if you've never seen a CROSS in every christian song. =.="

to me, it's just another ajaran sesat which we should be banning. but i don't think banning the famous people in it or their songs is necessary. it's pointless. i mean,  if you don't terbalikkan their songs, their songs are actually inspring to kids and really nice. so..stop

ANGAU

i know this is like...OUT OF NOWHERE.

i know this is like...TAK ADA KAITAN.

i love irfirudin ali. :)

GOODBYE

with this post, he's out of my head, for eternity.

Goodbye Wafiuddin Yasin. Thanks.

But I will stay inlove with Irfirudin Ali.

SNAKE SKIN

omgomgomg.
seriously. i think i have snake skin...


I don't really know if it's a problem with my shoes or something...
ever since i got the new wedges from MOD, i have huge "white spot with air inside it" thingies under my feet. BOTH my feet. i don't know what's wrong??

First, it was my right foot. it hurt. sooo bad. i thought it was just a normal blister when you wear heels.

i wasn't worried until one day, i fell down n it stings sooo baadd. i looked down at my foot and there was a huge bubble under my skin! i totally freaked! i tried to put oil but it got worse. =.="

i didn't even get to walk calmly that time.
later, the bubble broke!
i was happy enough.

guess what?
a bubble grew on my right LEFT FOOT.
grrrr..

this one didn't hurt. but its a bigger bubble.
i tried pulling it off, but it never worked.
while i was looking at the left one, i saw on my toe, another bubble!!!
urgh.

i pulled the extra skin off my skin and now i feel like i might be a snake generation! maybe from the dinosaur years. :P

BLURRness.

yeah.

i know...
i AM blurr.

i STILL DO have FEELINGS.

just because MUKA SAYA BLURR, and i don't react like i care..
doesn't mean i don't have feelings.
doesn't mean i'm not hurt by what you people do or say. =.="

 

PRINCE CHARMING

So...i texted Prince Charming, asking when he was gonna reach here.

He replied, "horse sick.l8tr."

=.=" i guess Prince Charming wasn't charming at all. *sigh

a sweet note to dear JANTANS

do not EVER be such moronic stupid assholes who have a girlfriend, and tell a girl bout it, AND tell the other girl you like her instead of your girlfriend.

it's like shit, u know.

PLEASE

BE CAREFUL THE NEXT TIME YOU CONFESS TO A GIRL

When in class..
I see u texting and smiling, your phone bloody well beeping.

When it comes to me..
Credit is like a damned dead unicorn that you "wish" it exists.

Next time, make sure you THINK before you confess please.

Till then, I wish you the lifetime worth of luck to win my fucked up heart again.

LIST TO BUY with mara moneey

1. shoes <3
2. clothes..preferrably, COTTON ON
3. make up (i'm all grown up, honey)
4. selendang *expensive ones, pleaaassee
5. manicure & pedicure with my GIRLS.
6. new purse (maybe roxy or kipling) :)

BANK IN SAVINGS= 2580-400
                                  =  2180


happiness...

Muffin

This post is dedicated to my dear hamster, Muffin.


She was the cutest pet I have ever had. She was nice. She pees when she's scared and was a very nice hamster. She never bit me and was just extremely cuddly.


Today, 23rd January 2011, I looked at her once and poured food on her house. Then, i went out.


I came back and cleaned the food and water bowl. I fixed their house a little bit. Moved it a little.
My heart stopped when i only saw Bahulu coming out. I picked tho house up. The aquarium only had Bahulu. No muffin. I searched around the house, and i thought, Muffin can't climb the glass of the aquarium.


So, i think Bahulu ate Muffin.


I hate Bahulu.


I will always miss you Muffin.

Chocolate Marble cake

This is embarassing.
As a lady in the house, i feel that i should know how to make marvellous cakes.
Turns out, i guess i'm not a lady yet. :)

THE RECIPE

Ingredients:
2 eggs
125g butter
125g caster sugar
155g self raising flour
125g dark choc. melted
60ml fresh milk
1 tsp vanila essence

Method:
1. beat sugar and butter
2. add egg. little by little.
3. seperate to two parts. A and B.
4. pour melted chocolate in A.
5. beat B. Add little flour, than little milk, than flour, than milk........
6. do step 5 with A.
7.put mixture B in baking tray. than A. than B. then buat sampai nampak cam marble cake.

The problem is, when i looked it up on internet, i didn't notice any instructions on the heating and minutes. So i did the usual 45 minutes, 180 degrees. (now, i don't think thats right)

++ if you noticed... there is vanila in the ingredients, but nothing bout vanila in methods. (i guess i didn't notice it in the internet)
Also, when i divided it to two, i didn't exactly know how to divide ALL the ingredients to two, u know. It was hard. It's like. why not just make two recipes, really?

So, my cake was dry and fragile. It tastes OKAYyy. just an okay. :(

REMINDER: always double check your online recipe.

X3-02

So i went to the "Gudang Telefon Bimbit" today to buy a phone. It's in Seksyen 18, Shah Alam.

THE JOURNEY:
   Once upon a time, my dad and I went on a trip to search for a new phone for me. Wait, hold up. Before that, let's talk about my old phone briefly. It's a sakura pink S312 Sony Ericson. Very cute. Bought it about a year ago in January, if not mistaken. Now, the back cover is gone, the screen, scratched and blackened, the charging hole does not work, and well...it's just down right hideous.

   Next. On the way, we followed posters and arrows. The posters were hilarious.
   "KEDAI TERBAKAR. STOCK CLEARANCE"
   "BOSS TAK ADA. KITA JUAL GILA-GILA"
Awesome.

   So i reached there and looked around. I reached at store number 2 and this guy just pressured me into buying his cheap phone. And indeed, the phone was a nice phone. It's new, original, n pretty.
   It was from rm 350 to 300 to 280. I was like...um..okayyy.
   I walked and walked. At the end of the fair, suddenly, the same guy was at the last shop. I was shocked. He said, "You see. I tell you edi. Kita semua sama company je". I laughed and made my decision.

   He tried to cheat me, really. He first gave me, and i asked the memory card. He said it's in there. I opened it up and asked again cuz I dont see it. He said, "You letak sini" and pointed to the empty space for memory card. I then asked again, "Mana cardnya?". And finally he told me to wait a sec and he went to get the memory card.
   Don't mess with the girl with retarded phone, dude. Hahah!

   So, end of story. I bought a white X3-02, Nokia. :))

Ps: The whole bf thing was a misunderstanding. We're okay now. <3

SABAH GIRL

This is my first post. I've thought about making a blog for months but it just never came around. Today, when my emotions were flaring with jealousy, anger, sadness, i made it. I made a blog. So this is it.

Sometimes, it's amazing how ONE PERSON can make a huge bad impression, and make you hate the state where she/he is from. Well, i'm disliking sabah now.

I am fat. I am not that pretty. But when a guy asked me to be his girlfriend, i liked it. I fell for him and all that i did, i thought of him. I guess he was the same. He's just the sweetest thing.

REASONS WHY I FELL DEEP:
-of all the rumours that i heard that guys like me, HE was the one person that asked me.
-one time, i saw him carry a chair for my close friend. That was really cool.
-he looks hot playing tennis. :)
-once, i was at the airport. we had a huge fight. Suddenly, he was there, soaking wet with rain, shivering cold...waiting for me, just to say bye for the end of the year. That was just too sweet.
-he always stays up with me if i can't sleep, even when he's half asleep already.
-he went to class at 1am, alone, just to get my phone that was left at class.
-etc.

Today, i was in One World Hotel for hi-tea with the ladies in my family. Lots of food. Yumm. :P

Suddenly, i got a text from a friend saying she needs to tell me something important.
She said she saw my bf texting another girl often. **note:he never lets me text other guys, and i never do.

My mind went blank.
My heart thumped hard.

I seriously broke down. All thoughts ran in my head.

REASONS FOR HIM TO CHEAT:
-i'm fat
-i'm not pretty
-his campus has tons of hotties
-i complain a lot about my life to him
-i make him mad a lot these days
-i make him angry a lot
-i'm fat
-selangor has a lot of pretty girls
-i'm not pretty
-he's funny. he can get girls easy

So then, the sabah girl.
I dont know who SHE is, but i hate her. I mean, texting some other girl's boyfriend? How skanky can she be? But then again, it might not be her fault. Might be that she doesn't know he has a gf.

Whatever it is, i hate my boyfriend now.

He cheated.